company dinner

I just went to my company year end party yesterday night. Was quite reluctant to go there at first as I heard that we will not be sitting together with our friends and collegues. But I am glad that I went for the party because overall we have a wonderful time, especially when I keep laughing at the stage.. It was damn funny.. I dont know why I keep laughing. But anyway the food over there was quite awful to eat but their dessert is nice.. We have some lucky draw and some quiz to answer at the dinner.. After the dinner, my collegues and I went to bishan there to fish some prawns.. but I didnt stay for long as I need to accompany my friend home.. I drank two glasses of beer over at bishan there and I almost got drunk.. haha.. need to improve my alcohol level..

Merry Christmas

Today is Christmas Day and I would to wish Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all my readers out there.

lost confidence

Mid-sem tests is tml le but I have no confidence in passing my tests. I keep saying to myself that just get over it and done with it.. dont care about the results le.. But can I really do it? Will I able to pass my tests? Some of my friends asked me what had happened to me this semester? Why I seems so slack now? I dont know how to answer them but life is tiring me down..

quotation that i wish to my readers

It had been a busy period for me over the past few days as my assignments are due and my mid-sem test is next week. I believe it will be a busy period for all poly students. Anyway, I wish to delicate this quotation for all my readers

Don't Quit Poem
by anonymous

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! if you must; but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
You might succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

how is your day

I find that nowadays even people see you sad or your nick is phrased in a negatively way, nobody really cares what makes you so sad/unhappy. Everybody just tell you dont give up etc.. No one really bothers what you are going through, how is your day. Maybe i should start asking people how is their day before someone will ask me that question. so to all readers: HOW IS YOUR DAY?

NVPC talk

It been a long time since I update my blog. Was busy over the past days for school. Anyway, today I went for the NVPC talk held in our school.Was very enriching for me. During the talk, the person shared a story called the starfish story with us. Here is the story (adopted from http://www.edu-point.edu.sg/viewstory.htm)

The Starfish Story

Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.

One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself at the thought of someone who would dance to the day, and so he walked faster to catch up.

As he got closer, he noticed that the figure was that of a young child, and that what he was doing was not dancing at all. The young child was reaching down to the shore, picking up small objects, and throwing them into the ocean.

He came closer still and called out, “Good morning! May I ask what it is that you are doing?”

The young child paused, looked up, and replied, “Throwing starfish into the ocean.”

“I must ask, then, why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?” asked the somewhat startled wise man.

To this, the young child replied, “The Sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll die.”

Upon hearing this, the wise man commented, “But, child, do you not realize that there are miles and miles of beach and there are starfish all along every mile? You can't possibly make a difference!”

At this, the young child bent down, picked up yet another starfish, and threw it into the ocean. As it met the water, he said, “It made a difference for that one.”

I feel that sometimes we do not have the strength to help alot of people but it makes a difference to the one whom we helped (just as the story was saying). Anyway sometimes I feel that we focused alot on the things we missed but not the things that we have. If we focused on the things that we have, i think that we will be a happier person.

not feeling well the past few days

Was not feeling well the past few days. Having a cough, flu and sore throat. Finally, I was feeling better today. Luckily, I have an understanding supervisor. If not for her, I will be still working today. Even though I am sick, I still went to work. Realise that when you are sick, dont go to work because you will only strain yourself. Anyway, I have a lot of things and work to done, therefore, I will blog when I am free.

has a bad day today

Today I had a bad day at school.. Was supposedly to meet m hk groupmates this morning but since they havent finish the project yet, i told them that i meet them later as I am going home to take my books. So I meet them at 12.30pm. But then I called one of them but she didnt answer the call so I sms her instead. she replied me only at 1pm. By that time, I was already in lecture.. so I thought lecture should end early so I told them i ended my class at 2pm but my lecture ended late.. so I straight away go to my tutorial class. by this time, she got very angry and scolded me... saying "whats wrong with you? did you not say 12.30? then 2? u think we very free to wait whole day. u think our time is not time? wha exactly do you want? I really got very saddened by this.. I suddenly thought of suiciding.. sometimes, i really hope that I am dead.. at least i dont need to deal with any problems, especially human relationship..


I also thought of quitting school.. The feeling in me is getting stronger.. maybe i should quit?

confusing feeling

Today was the starting of my school.. After working for around 1 month plus, i dont feel like going back to school anymore.. the passion was gone.. I want to go back to work.. Work is more fun than school.. Feeling confusing now..

Just came back from hk on 12/10 night. Went there with my school for study trip. Had a few unhappy incident over there, particularly during the last day. I lost my wallet when I came back to singapore.. luckily I dont have my ic inside my wallet.. only money.. i lost around $100 sing.. damn sad.. but i learn something from it.. nv to put my wallet at the back of jeans.. anyway when i go over there, the air pollution is quite serious (u can look at the photographs to see how serious the air pollution is).

here are a few pics that i took over there

symphony of lights

ocean park

victoria peak
you can see how serious the air pollution is

stanley market
nothing much in the market but the beach over there is very famous

disneyland
my favourite character is in there!! can you guess one? haha

feel sad and tired

I had an unhappy incident today at work. One of my colleagues, Xuan Min, when talking to me, raised his voice but he talked to others nicely. I really hated him because somehow he reminded me of my past. At that time, I really like crying. Plus, my grandfather had been deteriorating. His doctor say he might have to go for an operation but my family members objected to it because they think that he was too old for it. But frankly speaking, i think that he should go for the operation. At least, there is a 50-50 chances that he dont have to keep going to hospital to stay. Sometimes, i really feel very useless because it seems to me that my EQ is not as high as last time. I am emotionally and physically strained but life still have to continue

grandpa has been hospitalised

my grandfather was hospitalised again.. so will be very busy the next few days.. will update my hk trip pics as soon as i can.. stay tuned

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