has a bad day today

Today I had a bad day at school.. Was supposedly to meet m hk groupmates this morning but since they havent finish the project yet, i told them that i meet them later as I am going home to take my books. So I meet them at 12.30pm. But then I called one of them but she didnt answer the call so I sms her instead. she replied me only at 1pm. By that time, I was already in lecture.. so I thought lecture should end early so I told them i ended my class at 2pm but my lecture ended late.. so I straight away go to my tutorial class. by this time, she got very angry and scolded me... saying "whats wrong with you? did you not say 12.30? then 2? u think we very free to wait whole day. u think our time is not time? wha exactly do you want? I really got very saddened by this.. I suddenly thought of suiciding.. sometimes, i really hope that I am dead.. at least i dont need to deal with any problems, especially human relationship..


I also thought of quitting school.. The feeling in me is getting stronger.. maybe i should quit?

confusing feeling

Today was the starting of my school.. After working for around 1 month plus, i dont feel like going back to school anymore.. the passion was gone.. I want to go back to work.. Work is more fun than school.. Feeling confusing now..

Just came back from hk on 12/10 night. Went there with my school for study trip. Had a few unhappy incident over there, particularly during the last day. I lost my wallet when I came back to singapore.. luckily I dont have my ic inside my wallet.. only money.. i lost around $100 sing.. damn sad.. but i learn something from it.. nv to put my wallet at the back of jeans.. anyway when i go over there, the air pollution is quite serious (u can look at the photographs to see how serious the air pollution is).

here are a few pics that i took over there

symphony of lights

ocean park

victoria peak
you can see how serious the air pollution is

stanley market
nothing much in the market but the beach over there is very famous

disneyland
my favourite character is in there!! can you guess one? haha

feel sad and tired

I had an unhappy incident today at work. One of my colleagues, Xuan Min, when talking to me, raised his voice but he talked to others nicely. I really hated him because somehow he reminded me of my past. At that time, I really like crying. Plus, my grandfather had been deteriorating. His doctor say he might have to go for an operation but my family members objected to it because they think that he was too old for it. But frankly speaking, i think that he should go for the operation. At least, there is a 50-50 chances that he dont have to keep going to hospital to stay. Sometimes, i really feel very useless because it seems to me that my EQ is not as high as last time. I am emotionally and physically strained but life still have to continue

grandpa has been hospitalised

my grandfather was hospitalised again.. so will be very busy the next few days.. will update my hk trip pics as soon as i can.. stay tuned

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