F1 race

Was working at the F1 race over the two days.. Quite bored actually because I have nothing to do. I was deployed at the one of the suite. Expectations of usher at the suite is higher than the grandstand. But I really saw how challenging for Singapore to hold such a big and prestigious event, especially on friday when it was raining in the morning. On friday, it was very chaotic. My supervisor was late, then the queue for the lunch was quite long.. then the rooftop of the suite was damaged.. then they have to repair it.. I think they never have expected the rain to be so heavy..

Anyway, it was quite excited to see the race at first.. and it was really different to be to see it and on tv.. But as the time goes by, you will be irritated by the 'zoom zomm' sound of the car..

sianz

Suddenly, I don't feel so close to one of my best friends.. I think is because she keep dont believe me and keep saying things that hurt me. maybe i shld have a talk with her?

anyway, i just sprained my ankle when I was up on my company's ship on friday.. idiot man, alot of things cannot do.. then my mother keep nagging at me.. wah diao.. so sianz loh.. sometimes I dont even feel like staying at home, facing her.. facing her nagging and scolding.. Relationship between me and her is getting from bad to worse.. What to do man.. When I sprained my ankle, she nag at me loh.. wth, I am the patient lei..I must start psycho-ing myself, not bother by the things she say..



see how swollen is my ankle

shld I quit?

actually I have been thinking whether I shld quit my current job..everytime my colllegues say something abt me, I will feel hurt even if they are joking.. like for example, today, one of my collegues commented that I am not steady because I was answering the karoke calls but I nv check the tickets and all the batam view reservation he have to do himself when actually is my job.. Maybe I really slow in doing anything bah.. the job is giving me alot of unhappiness bah, with my collegues commenting on me even though how hard i tried.. I dont know whether i shld continue this job or not

guardian angel?

Was watching a show called guardian angel. It is a programme which based on true account of people when they are down and lonely, someone is there to accompany them, encourage them.. After i finished watching the 6 episodes, I realised that the guardian angel beside them was mostly their parents.. be it is their mother or father.. Somehow it reminded me on how 'badly' my mom had treated me the past few years and even now.. She keep doing things that hurt me and when I needed someone to be there for me, she wasn't around or she was ard but doesn't care.. I really envy people who can communicate with their parents and in a good relation with their parents because I dont have such family.. I have been contributing to the family silently without anyone noticing it.. Actually i dont mind contributing silently, I just want my mom to encourage me whenever i need it.. but guess is just a wishful thinking of mine..The knot between me and her would never be untied.