what is wrong with me

dont know what is wrong with me man.. getting upset over my mom going out with her 'boyfriend' or when I heard that he is coming to our house.. Today, she was supposed to accompany me to go to my auntie house but apparently the guy called her saying that he is coming over to my house.. dont know y but i got really upset when my mother told me that she would not be accompanying me to my auntie's house.. what is more saddening is that when she went out with her 'boyfriend' she didn't even told me that she is going out.. she just went out with this guy, close the door and then I realise that she went out with him.. I dont know why I am feeling so sad from this.. Maybe because I dont want her to be so close to this guy as this guy is married with kids.. maybe I dont her to be hurt one more time.. guess I really have to figure it out

last of school yesterday

Yesterday was the last day of school and I wasn't happy at all. Thought will be feeling happy because I dont need to see my classmates again but lots of things happened on that day to make me feel very very sad.. When I saw my ROM result and I know I failed my project because of my peer evaluation, I feel like crying but I controlled it.. But in the end, I still cried.. and it is the first time in my poly life I cried so terribly because of my results.. First time when I am talking to my counsellor, I cried so terribly.. Guess I am really hurt by my classmates.. what they wrote about me in the peer evaluation.. I guess that they never notice how hard I worked in terms of managing my life, work and studies.. Sometimes, I hope that they will be in my shoes, experience the struggles I had.. But this is just a wishful thinking of mine.. They can't possible experience it, especially the abuse that I have to go through.. I feel that whatever effort I put in the group project is all wasted.. But I noticed how my friends cared about me, especially Rina and Mabel.. They will really by side when I cried. Really want to thank them for that