last of school yesterday

Yesterday was the last day of school and I wasn't happy at all. Thought will be feeling happy because I dont need to see my classmates again but lots of things happened on that day to make me feel very very sad.. When I saw my ROM result and I know I failed my project because of my peer evaluation, I feel like crying but I controlled it.. But in the end, I still cried.. and it is the first time in my poly life I cried so terribly because of my results.. First time when I am talking to my counsellor, I cried so terribly.. Guess I am really hurt by my classmates.. what they wrote about me in the peer evaluation.. I guess that they never notice how hard I worked in terms of managing my life, work and studies.. Sometimes, I hope that they will be in my shoes, experience the struggles I had.. But this is just a wishful thinking of mine.. They can't possible experience it, especially the abuse that I have to go through.. I feel that whatever effort I put in the group project is all wasted.. But I noticed how my friends cared about me, especially Rina and Mabel.. They will really by side when I cried. Really want to thank them for that